I was told today by both SH and SW that SW will check records before giving them to me to check in, so I wouldn't have to print out MARC records and give them back to SW. When SH told me, she said after checking them in, I could go put them on the shelf and then shelfread. I'm not sure if they are doing this because someone thinks I don't know the records, or that i'm not doing my job. I don't know if this is supposed to help me or just make feel inadequate even further. I'm afraid to ask to have this put into writing, but I might need it to protect myself. I need a private talk with SH if I can get her alone long enough.
I'm going to push up my job search because I don't need this kind of stress.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
I give up
I don't even know why I try to talk to anyone about this place. I can't be the only person who doesn't like to be talked down to.
I talked to RB. today, and BC. came by, and was asked to come in. As usual, she turned things right around and made me feel like a spineless, brainless idiot. I don't remember 90% of the things she said she covered - if I was even in the meetings she mentioned. I don't think I was in the meetings- and I know I missed one or two - and was late to at least one because I was told that I didn't need to come in early. SH. told me that I hadn't been told about the DRCh being serials; and I do not recall ever seeing it mentioned before by BC. As far as some of this other stuff...Mrs. Q said to leave the local call number blank; no one ever told me anything else. I know no one said anything about the 001 and the 008 fields before Susan told me about it about 6-8 months ago.
If I have been making mistakes, then instead of fixing them and forgetting about them, they should have been brought to my attention. If I don't know that I've made a mistake, I can't know that what I did was wrong.
I do know that she has said things and then turned around and done the opposite - for example, telling us that she didn't care if we even did 5 a day, as long as they were right. Yes she did. If we only did 5 a day, she'd tell us we were behind.
BC would tell us to do 5 a day as long as they are good, SH turns around and demands 7-10 every nite, and tells me to use the best record I can find.
It's also not like other people in this place haven't made mistakes. I give up. I'm going to start keeping my eyes open for another place to go; this place is making me crazy.
She was talking to me like I was a child. I felt like just getting up and walking out. I am proud that I didn't cry like I usually do when I get mad. I guess that I just figured that it doesn't matter anymore. To tell you the truth, I don't much like working here anymore.
I talked to RB. today, and BC. came by, and was asked to come in. As usual, she turned things right around and made me feel like a spineless, brainless idiot. I don't remember 90% of the things she said she covered - if I was even in the meetings she mentioned. I don't think I was in the meetings- and I know I missed one or two - and was late to at least one because I was told that I didn't need to come in early. SH. told me that I hadn't been told about the DRCh being serials; and I do not recall ever seeing it mentioned before by BC. As far as some of this other stuff...Mrs. Q said to leave the local call number blank; no one ever told me anything else. I know no one said anything about the 001 and the 008 fields before Susan told me about it about 6-8 months ago.
If I have been making mistakes, then instead of fixing them and forgetting about them, they should have been brought to my attention. If I don't know that I've made a mistake, I can't know that what I did was wrong.
I do know that she has said things and then turned around and done the opposite - for example, telling us that she didn't care if we even did 5 a day, as long as they were right. Yes she did. If we only did 5 a day, she'd tell us we were behind.
BC would tell us to do 5 a day as long as they are good, SH turns around and demands 7-10 every nite, and tells me to use the best record I can find.
It's also not like other people in this place haven't made mistakes. I give up. I'm going to start keeping my eyes open for another place to go; this place is making me crazy.
She was talking to me like I was a child. I felt like just getting up and walking out. I am proud that I didn't cry like I usually do when I get mad. I guess that I just figured that it doesn't matter anymore. To tell you the truth, I don't much like working here anymore.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Whew
There are some times that I really wish I was someplace else when I'm at work. Tonight was one of them.
It seems that every time I do something, it's wrong. Even if I do it according to the way I was told to do it. On top of that, the way I'm supposed to do things now is making my workload increase timewise, which means that I will have less time to do whatever I need to do. With SH. having me shifting, and labeling (which now I'm doing totally wrong), and all sorts of other things, I don't need extra work.
Not to mention that I was made to feel like I am brainless. Contrary to BC's belief, I DO have a brain. I tried to explain to her that I DO know what the MARC record information says. I couldn't tell you what the field number is. The things I don't understand about it are things that I don't need to know anyway. I don't know why she insists on treating me the way she does, but I'm to the point where I am going to come in and talk to RB. tomorrow or on Monday. There is absolutely no reason for anyone to be treated as demeaning as that.
It seems that every time I do something, it's wrong. Even if I do it according to the way I was told to do it. On top of that, the way I'm supposed to do things now is making my workload increase timewise, which means that I will have less time to do whatever I need to do. With SH. having me shifting, and labeling (which now I'm doing totally wrong), and all sorts of other things, I don't need extra work.
Not to mention that I was made to feel like I am brainless. Contrary to BC's belief, I DO have a brain. I tried to explain to her that I DO know what the MARC record information says. I couldn't tell you what the field number is. The things I don't understand about it are things that I don't need to know anyway. I don't know why she insists on treating me the way she does, but I'm to the point where I am going to come in and talk to RB. tomorrow or on Monday. There is absolutely no reason for anyone to be treated as demeaning as that.
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